Always THINK, before you SPEAK..

Aaaaahh.

I said something I shouldn't have said....

"What are the problems/challenges that you want to overcome?"

"Uhm.. my friend.......... and someone I like.. "

"Your friend and...?"

"My friend and someone I like."


Zing! That's it. All out in the open. I can't take it back. And now.... I regret saying it. I even regret thinking about it. Why can't I get it out of my mind? Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Why can't I just throw these thoughts away and go on with my business?

Well. It's simply because I still can't believe it happened. I still can't accept one simple, frustrating fact : he likes my friend.... more than he likes me.

I might not have enough evidence to prove it. But I have these feelings... and I can feel it. It's like he wants to show it to me. Ugh. Can you at least hide it? Or at least, do not show your attraction to her when I'm around. And honestly,I don't want to see the two of you hanging around as if you've known each other for a long time.

Bitter?

Yeah, I guess I am. Because I'm just not ready yet. It'll take some time before I get over this because a friend of mine is involved. And it hurts even more... because it also feels like they're hiding something from me.. something big.. I guess.

This is an issue that's long been bugging me. Something that I didn't know if it should really be considered as a problem. It is something to overcome, yes. But is it really a problem?

Or maybe.... it is just a painful truth that I must learn to accept.

I should stop being a coward..

I should start facing reality...

Wake up!