It all goes down to us.

LIFE

It's getting harder and harder. Specifically, the STUDYING part.I don't know what to do... I'm not much of a "masipag" person. Procrastination is still in me. Cramming is my expertise. How? How do you think will I be able to get on with this......

That's exactly how I feel right now. I'm really worried about the future. How am I going to do this. How am I going to start everything. What am I going to put there. I'm talking about our mandatory cultural tourism paper and the tourism research, of course. It's really hard, you know. At least for me. Because in this kind of situation, you really, really, really have to FOCUS. Put your whole self into it. Start an in-depth study of that topic. Read. Research. Write. THINK.

That's probably everything that I should do. But it's HARD. It's FREAKING HARD. I guess it's also because we haven't really started it yet. But I hope to God that we will be able to do this right. That we will all be able to make the right decisions all the time. That we'll all be patient and very, very, very understanding of each other. And that we'll have the strength to do everything.

It's part of life. Problems are part of life. because it is through problems that we are able learn. It is through problems that we are able to understand more.

Honestly... I'm afraid of the future. I'm afraid of what the future has in store for me. Will I be the one that I'm thinking and dreaming of? Or will it be the opposite. Scary. If it's the opposite, it really scares me. But what if?

Haay.... Life will always be hard. It will always be our choice if we'll give up or fight the battle.

Anyway... it's all part of it. All of us will go through it. I guess we'll just have to continue and never stop believing.
There's a thing called faith, you know?

"Faith is believing when there's nothing else you can do."

My Life's turning point, I guess.

Well. First of all, I really don't know what say. I mean, I want to say something about what happened to my life for the past year, but I don't know how. I don't know what words should I use.

I have read my past blog posts on two different sites. And all I can say is... I have changed. Really changed.

I feel that I am much more complete now than before. I am happier. Really happy. I'm much more contented with what I have. What else? I think I have EVERYTHING that I need to have in this world. A loving and cheerful family. An amazing group of friends that will never let me down. And a bestfriend/lover/boyfriend/family all in one person. What more can I ask for?

I guess I just realized that I am a much different person from last year. I'm much better now. And I'm proud to say that. I've been through a lot. Now I'm ready to truly live. No more insecurities. No more immaturity. Time to be a woman and face the challenges of real life.

This is a change that I've welcomed from the bottom of my heart. The change, that I guess, I've been waiting for.

I love life and I'm gonna start living it.