Disillusionment

Something has been bugging me. And it's very confusing. I don't know what I'm thinking. It just happened. It's not right. This shouldn't happen.

12 NOV 2010, It's getting better!

TGIF!

This morning at the office I helped Trixie to arrange the newspaper articles that will be used in updating all the bulletin boards of the Office for Public Affairs. At our first day, we were told by Ate Mica that even these simple things are being checked by the Father De la Rosa so it is very important that these things are updated. These newspaper articles contains news, facts, and happenings in UST.

Also, Trixie and I filled out billing forms for the DHL express. We are the ones who put the addresses and the consignee to whom the package will be sent. These are again in relation to the upcoming Christmas Concert Gala.

In the afternoon, me, together with Trixie had a campus tour again. The group consisted of sophomore students from Colegio de San Agustin in Makati. These kids are "conyo". Very, I would say. Anyway, they were divided into two because they express interests in Fine Arts and Medicine. I was the one in - charge with the one going to the Beato Angelico Building.

Ms. Reintegrado from the College of Fine Arts and Design, gave the students a tour of the building. She showed the works of their alumni and students, the classroms, the drawing room on the 8th floor, and the one liked by the students very much, the IMAC Computer laboratory where all the computers are MAC. They were all amazed by it, I supposed. :)

The tour ended at around quarter to five. It was fun and much better than the one yesterday. It is mostly because the students were much more disciplined and they were really interested with the school.

Soo.. That's my third day at work. Getting better and better.. Now I'm thinking of spending my 300 hrs here... :))

*I forgot to say that Trixie and I are allowed to use the SLR Camera. HAHAHA. Soo much fun.. Especially during campus tours so that we have pictures that we could put in the practicum report. And also, during times in the office when we'd like to take pictures. HAHAHA. We are so lucky, I know. :)))

10 NOV 2010, First Day :)

"Hello good morning! Office of Public Affairs! *smile*"

"Good Morning Ma'am! This is Louie from UST Public Affairs Office. I just want to ask who the Ambassador of Spain to the Philippines is? This is regarding the UST Christmas Concert Gala on December 2. "

Well, hello! Those were the lines that I have said when I spoke to different persons on the phone. Most of them were from different embassies of several countries in the Philippines. I asked who the different ambassadors are to know whom will we address the invitation for the UST Christmas Concert Gala this coming December. Yey! I'm quite excited about it because they said that we're required to attend. It is a formal event so we will have to wear gowns or dresses. :)

By the way, these were the people that I met, the different people involved with the Public Affairs Office:

Ma'am Fontanilla - the director
Ms. Jhona - secretary of Ma'am Fontanilla
Ms. Cel - the one in-charge of the different tokens to be given by the university to its guests
Kuya Jonathan - the artist
Kuya Anthony - former Varsitarian working with PAO and with ABS-CBN
Kuya Rom - the super "daldal" staff :)
Ms. Mica - our sunshine girl :)

This was my first day. I'm glad that I have already started. When I came into the office, together with Trixie, the other practicumer from 4T1, we were immediately called by Ma'am Fontanilla. She is a very nice person, fun to talk with, and very welcoming. We were given a formal orientation and some information about what the office is all about. Basically, it involves three matters : Media Publicity, Visitors Management, and Events Management, which is "very in line with our training", as Ma'am Fontanilla said.

Me, personally, I am very overwhelmed by everything. Being told that we have to attend to events, expose ourselves to the media, talk to a lot of persons, assist different ambassadors, conduct campus tours, and etc. Most of all, I love the idea that we will be given free tickets to the Christmas Special at Araneta Coliseum. I think it's an event under ABS-CBN. Wow. :)

On the other hand, today I also learned how to use the modern photocopying machine. It was fun, actually. I enjoyed it. I loved it. HAHAHA. I also did an updated list of contact details of different foreign embassies that is essential, especially when there are events in the campus. Together with Trixie, we also arranged the tokens to be given to those who are requesting for it. It is very important that we have reserves of those arranged tokens so that when somebody asks for it,we could already give it to him/her, provided that there was a letter submitted to the Public Affairs Office beforehand.

So... that's how my first day went. I enjoyed a lot. The people around me are very intellectual and fun to be with. Let's see. Maybe I'll be thinking of spending my whole 600 hrs there. :))

I'm just tired. :/

We fought again.

It's not a big fight. It's just another meaningless misunderstanding.

It's always my fault.

But I had to admit. Sometimes... it is really my fault. But somehow, you know, I get tired.

I get tired of defending myself. I get tired of those times when we fight over simple things. I get tired of those misunderstandings.

Ako nalang ung laging nanunuyo...

So what I always do, I just keep quiet. Shut my mouth and let him think what he wants to think. I guess, he also had those moments when he really doesn't believe what I say. That I'm just inventing reasons to get away with the issue. I let him believe that if that's what he wants. I'm just tired of explaining myself to him.

Haaay..

But I'm not giving up.

I love him. In the end, that's all I can say.

HAPPY! Shalalala... It's so nice to be happy...

H A P P I N E S S

I guess it's a word that is very important to every single person. A state of mind that people want to achieve. One thing that people would die for just to have it.

Some say you are happy if you have everything that you want. You're happy if you could do anything. You're happy if you have freedom. You're happy if you have this, you're happy if you have that.

In my own opinion, happiness is more than just that. Happiness doesn't only rely on material things, freedom, etc. In order to be happy, you must also take your own actions into consideration. Am I doing the right thing? Am I on the right path? Do I have control on myself? Well these questions probably need to be answered. For you to be happy, you must act according to your reason. You must know what is good or bad. Your goodness should come out naturally. You should be able to control his own self. Not going overboard, and not going less that that. You should be able to give or do just the right amount of everything. Balance is essential. Because when we start losing control of everything, losing balance in our lives, that's when we end up destroying ourselves. And that can never make you happy.

If you focus on the good and start staying away from the bad, then I guess that's when you'll become happy. Knowing that you're not hurting anyone. That what you're doing is actually for the better.

Happiness, I think, also includes putting GOD in the center of your life. He knows what is the best for us. We have to act according to His plans, to His laws. If He plays a big part in our life, then that alone can make you happy.

I think, there's also one important factor to be considered in order for us to be happy.

That is, if we have LOVE in our hearts. Love is good. If you have this in your heart, then life will never be miserable. There will never be sadness. But, moderation should also take place in loving. Too much of it, sometimes, cannot be good. Well, not only love. Too much of everything is bad. That is why I said, we must learn to take control.

But if we have the right amount of love, then the world will be a better place to live in. It will be a happy place for every man. Because love can make us do extraordinary things. It can make our lives better. Of course, if you love someone, you wouldn't hurt them. And that is considered a good act. Loving one another is considered a virtuous act.

So if you love someone, you won't be able hurt them. It is good because it's the right thing. It is according to God's law. Then that is the time when you consider yourself happy.

Well I guess, happiness is deserved by every person in this world. It doesn't depend on material goods or money or freedom. It all goes down to the goodness that's in you. To all the love inside your heart. And to the role that God plays in your life. As long as you have the right amount of these things, the balance that you need, moderation and control, then nothing else matters. You will be happy.

I do not agree that happiness is absolute. That your life needed to be perfect and complete in order to be happy. Sometimes, people can be happy at one time then sad the next. That isn't bad. Because life is not perfect. So everyone has the chance to be happy anytime they want, even if it is only for a short time.

So.. I guess we just have to:

Be good. Live right. Love much. Have faith. Take control.

Then life will be better. And you can have as much happiness in your life as you want.


Haay. This is my PD paper. I hope this make sense. I'm tired. I'll go sleep na. Goodnite world!

It all goes down to us.

LIFE

It's getting harder and harder. Specifically, the STUDYING part.I don't know what to do... I'm not much of a "masipag" person. Procrastination is still in me. Cramming is my expertise. How? How do you think will I be able to get on with this......

That's exactly how I feel right now. I'm really worried about the future. How am I going to do this. How am I going to start everything. What am I going to put there. I'm talking about our mandatory cultural tourism paper and the tourism research, of course. It's really hard, you know. At least for me. Because in this kind of situation, you really, really, really have to FOCUS. Put your whole self into it. Start an in-depth study of that topic. Read. Research. Write. THINK.

That's probably everything that I should do. But it's HARD. It's FREAKING HARD. I guess it's also because we haven't really started it yet. But I hope to God that we will be able to do this right. That we will all be able to make the right decisions all the time. That we'll all be patient and very, very, very understanding of each other. And that we'll have the strength to do everything.

It's part of life. Problems are part of life. because it is through problems that we are able learn. It is through problems that we are able to understand more.

Honestly... I'm afraid of the future. I'm afraid of what the future has in store for me. Will I be the one that I'm thinking and dreaming of? Or will it be the opposite. Scary. If it's the opposite, it really scares me. But what if?

Haay.... Life will always be hard. It will always be our choice if we'll give up or fight the battle.

Anyway... it's all part of it. All of us will go through it. I guess we'll just have to continue and never stop believing.
There's a thing called faith, you know?

"Faith is believing when there's nothing else you can do."

My Life's turning point, I guess.

Well. First of all, I really don't know what say. I mean, I want to say something about what happened to my life for the past year, but I don't know how. I don't know what words should I use.

I have read my past blog posts on two different sites. And all I can say is... I have changed. Really changed.

I feel that I am much more complete now than before. I am happier. Really happy. I'm much more contented with what I have. What else? I think I have EVERYTHING that I need to have in this world. A loving and cheerful family. An amazing group of friends that will never let me down. And a bestfriend/lover/boyfriend/family all in one person. What more can I ask for?

I guess I just realized that I am a much different person from last year. I'm much better now. And I'm proud to say that. I've been through a lot. Now I'm ready to truly live. No more insecurities. No more immaturity. Time to be a woman and face the challenges of real life.

This is a change that I've welcomed from the bottom of my heart. The change, that I guess, I've been waiting for.

I love life and I'm gonna start living it.

First BORA experience.

Boracay Island is one of the major tourist destinations in the country. With its white sand beaches and crystal clear waters, it is like a hypnotic magnet that lures the travelers into a lotus existence and fascinate their eyes. Located in the Western Visayas region, Boracay Island is a destination that is truly captivating.

The first time I went to Boracay was last November 2009. Together with my family, we spent 3days and 2nights in this beautiful island. We stayed at La Carmela de Boracay located at Station 2, the place which is roughly the center of the island and meant for those who want to be within proximity of the bars.

During our first day, we ate at a simple restaurant. They serve food that are grilled, like, inihaw na manok, sisig, bangus sisig, barbecues, and the like. But then on our last night on Bora, my parents chose to eat at a place near the market where you will be the one to buy the ingredients that will be used in your chosen dish, and they will be the one who will cook it for you. I think the reason why they put a wet market near the resto is so that tourists can buy sea foods and/vegetables that will be used in their cuisine and easily bring it to the restaurant for them to cook. In our case, we chose sinigang na hipon, buttered shrimps, and sweet and sour fish. Two thumbs up to their cooking because it was really delicious. We practically ate more rice than we usually did. We truly enjoyed these gratifying dishes, especially the sinigang na hipon. I think for some it might just be an ordinary viand, but there's something unusual in it. But don't get me wrong, it tasted unusual but unusual that is good. Maybe it's the shrimps because they are fresh, or it can be the vegetables. Maybe its their way of cooking. I really can't figure it out. But it is really good. Totally delightful.

My 3 days in Bora had been a precious one. A truly unforgettable one. It is an experience that I will always cherish and a memory that will always be remembered.

"Happiness is not something you experience, it's something you remember."

--Oscar Levant

Don't waste your time. Start living.

I just wonder,

"Why are you afraid of falling in love?"

It's a question that has no answer, I think.

Maybe people are afraid of the pain that they would definitely feel (It's part of it, I guess). Maybe they don't know what they're supposed to do because they have no experience. It can also be, their fear of change. I mean if you would fall in love with someone, it would really change your life. Also, maybe they're afraid of what other people would say. Like their friends, and especially, their parents. Maybe it's also because they don't believe in true love. Maybe they think that they are not ready yet. And finally, maybe because they think that he/she is not the right person.

I don't know. There are so many reasons why they're afraid. I also felt that way before, somehow, but that changed. Still, I don't know the answer.

One thing I'm quite certain about.. It's definitely worth taking the risk and falling in love.

So.. Why don't you go out, enjoy life, and take the risk? If pain would come, accept it. Deal with it. Continue to love life. Learn to take chances. Stop being afraid. It's MUCH better than not trying at all.

Life is too short for us to waste. Start living, and be truly happy.

"The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live."
--Elbert Hubbard

Finally.. I found you.

"You are the one
That i've been searching for my whole life through,
You are the one that i've been looking for
And now that i have found you,
I'll never let you go, i'll hold you in my arms
You are the one... "

I just heard this song a while ago..

It made me realize something..

That now... I can finally say, "YOU are the ONE".

Is it too much? It is never enough.

(BRACE YOURSELF 'CAUSE I'M BECOMING CHEESIER BY THE MINUTE. LOL. )

Last year, I found this thing they called LOVE. From then on, I started seeing this special person every single day. Yeah I know it might seem too much but actually for me, it is not enough. Yes.. it is not enough.

If you have been in love, you'll know how I feel. Wanting to be with your special someone for a MUCH MUCH LONGER TIME. Wanting to spend the rest of your life with him but for the mean time, you can't.. It is quite hard. The thing that makes it harder is the fact that you can do nothing about it. You'll just have to wait for the RIGHT time.

According to Malcolm S. Forbes: "Presence is more than just being there." And it's true. Because in their presence, you'll feel almost everything that you want to feel: you'll feel happy, safe, secured, assured, appreciated, and most especially, loved by someone unconditionally. They'll become your security blanket. Someone whom you know will be there fo you all the time, and someone who won't let you down.

Yes I know that your family and friends will also be able to provide you with these things, but really, a love from a special someone is much more different.

Hmm. I really don't know if Im making sense but.. this is how I feel. Im in love and I just want to express it. It is a great feeling and I would never regret feeling it.

I guess I can now say: I love being in love. :)